Even in kindergarten, I felt I was different. I didn't really want to play with other kids, I just wanted to be around adults.
My parents were at work all the time and when they came home they were tired all the time - I was alone a lot of the time. I learned to be alone and do things. "I 'lived' a lot on the internet and learned from there. I thought I'd leave them alone and I could manage on my own.
I have never felt loved.
When I was very little, I remember my stepfather drinking and beating my mother.
I was bullied at school, I don't know why, but I was bullied all the time.